What Goes Up Must Come Down

What goes up must come down. That’s Murphy’s Law. It applies virtually to everything. We take a ball, for example, we throw the ball upwards into the air, and naturally it will come down due to the presence of gravitational force. It would be an out-of-the-world experience to watch a ball floating in the air without any physical support, except you have an invisible man holding the ball there.

What goes up must come down. People go through ups and downs. It is the shitty reality in living in this real-time temporal dwelling place. Nobody can say he or she can stay in the realm of his or her heyday forever. Nobody. There are times we breath in the air of triumph triumphantly, and there are those times when we are suffocated, succumbed by our own existence in this tiny little planet. That’s life. Life is not always a bed of roses after all. Life is real, life is hard. Sometimes, life is death.

Menanti Sebuah Katarsis

                Tragedi yang menimpaku kira- kira dua tahun yang sudah masih lagi segar dalam benakku. Lutut kananku merakam duka yang telah berkali-kali cuba aku padam namun apakan daya, bekas terjahan maut dari sisi itu tidak mampu untuk hilang dalam sekelip mata.

                 Dendam? Tidak. Aku langsung tidak menaruh sebarang kesumat terhadap sesiapa atas apa yang berlaku, walau sekelumit. Bukannya mahu dihambur pujian, tetapi aku percaya membiarkan dendam bersarang dalam lubuk kalbu merupakan satu pilihan salah yang mungkin meracun imanku.

                Sesekali ada juga bertandang amarah membakar emosiku. Dari mana datangnya, aku pun tak tahu. Mungkin dari sakitnya pedih yang aku rasai, atau mungkin sakit itu datangnya dari hati? Ah. Jangan difikir dalam-dalam. Makin celaru aku jadinya nanti. Persoalan bila lutut aku akan pulih merejam- rejam mindaku yang buntu tanpa kepastian. Aku tak mahu jadi cacat sampai mati. Aku kepingin benar untuk melangkah masuk ke padang dengan zat dan bentukku yang semutlak- mutlaknya, dengan kudrat dan kemampuanku semaksimumnya diolah dan diterjemahkan menjadi satu maha karya, kalau boleh dan diizinkan.

             

              Bola sepak merupakan hidupku. Bagi orang lain, benda itu tidak lebih daripada sebiji bola bodoh yang disepak- sepak. Jadi mungkin pada pemahaman mereka, kes seorang manusia dewasa yang tidak mampu untuk bermain bola hanya satu perbincangan yang trivial dan kecil. Ya. Kecil bagi mereka, tapi tidak pada aku. Bola kecil yang bodoh tu kandung makna satu dunia untuk aku. Aku membesar dengan bola sepak, dan aku nak terus tua dengan bola sepak.

                Si Lutut Kanan masih lagi tidak menampakkan tanda- tanda untuk keluar dari zon rehat yang panjang, malah bertambah teruk. Pedihnya makin pekat. Salah aku juga. Terlebih guna. Kini, aku ke kelas setiap hari terhincut- hincut. Rutin harian makin sukar tanpa sebelah kaki yang sempurna. Aku mengecap perepeteia dan anagnorisis yang dianugerahkan oleh Tuhan dengan hati yang lapang dan terbuka. Sambil itu, aku tertanya- tanya bila agaknya katarsis untuk tragedi ini akan datang menjelma.  Bila ya?

I'm Here Waiting

I am always here waiting for you

Dancing in the growing darkness

Singing along to the tune of duskiness

That was played by the harp of the nights

I am always here watching for you

As you ride along the dusty, insensate road

As you climb the tall fat wall to reload

As you realize it’s not day but twilights

I am here and there for you

Seeking high and low

I paid some visits to say hello

Alack, my presence will ignite frights

I am always here waiting for you

Expecting the ripe moment

To begin my concert of separating and torment.

p/s: who am I? I'm D

Robots,Hearts, Hell

Many a people find it is a must to fall in love since they don’t wish to turn themselves into robots. How do they relate these two things? Robots? Love? Falling in love, again and again, time and again, is it really, intrinsically the nature of man? I mean, is it an utter necessity to have a pakwe/makwe along by your side while you are still, figuratively, do not have a proper grasp onto yourself?

 How about you yourself? -Your financial issue, your job, your everything. Oh, and how about your parents? Your study? I, for one, as a student, does not harmonise with the fall-in-love attitude. not anymore.

For some reasons, I could not help myself but to scorn to the ideology of youngster-but-not-yet-matured love. i’m sorry if my words offended anyone, but seeing this situation really gives me a gist of tasting hell. i could not find a way on how not to feel guilty wasting my parents’ money to buy top-ups, as well as the remorse to top-up more sins.

One more thing, the topic regarding hearts, broken hearts, for example, should not be treated too seriously.

The people who do not have bf/gf are not robots btw. maybe they are still searching the meaning of life, and also to suffice themselves, to make it more sensible and logical to find a mortal love, when the time is right.

 ah. but this piece of writing might just be applicable only to a student like me who still needs to strive for my study. for those who have worked and have already get the grasp of your gravity(already got your source of income and all), fall la in love with suitable person ork. nok ngat fall in love. find one.

p/s: this is not a serious writing, it’s just a casual one. trust me.

Young Guns

It’s not always wrong to be a gun

Since it’s not meant for mere fun

A mean means to get the job done

Just enough to end an exile on the run

Young guns are bulletful of words

That might gonna sprinkle anytime onwards

Driving away some cowards

Freaking out a handful of bastards

Call them whatever you want;

Pistol, revolver, or magnum

They are still the same, one of a kind

Young guns who should save their bullets for the hard times.

Don't Dread Dreams

To become extremely important in a society is some men’s aspiration; the expectation to be extolled by others, to be besieged by a round applause as soon as finishing the last line of a speech in front of thousands of crowd, and to be regarded as a brilliant member of the society. Everyone wants to be successful, and everyone wants to look successful. To depict the meaning of ‘success’ is not hard; denotatively this word means something dreamt that is achieved. Yeah, everybody has a dream, or dreams, but not many were able to turn their dreams into reality, into something that they can really feel and grasp. Dreams are all over the place; in the classroom, at the office, construction sites, in the kitchen and even in sleeps, we always dream! Dream is essential for life. Dream is, for one, the fuel for human to keep moving, to keep reaching and exerting.  Someone must have something in his mind that he really wants to gain and somehow must operate some modes to achieve his dream. The first way to light up your track towards achieving your dream is to implant a strong belief in your brain that you are able to reach it no matter how hard the test will be. You are what you believe you are; your mind generates everything. As long as you can dream, there’s no reason you can’t achieve. Dream on and on and on, till you get through.