You, Me, and Hospital

I shall document history. A selected event of my life. An epiphany.  

17/1/2013

today is thursday.a bunch of staffs come to me to check my condition.everything is done;they check on my symptoms,my calf diameter and scribble on my legs for measurements.pain is felt at times when the doctors twist my right knee.i am flummoxed with all the medical jargons that keep bombarding my ears.i comprehend some of the terms used by those doctors and trainers,and some are unprecedented.

18/1/2013

today i will undergo the first surgery ever in my life.i couldnt sleep last night,thinking about the pain that i will bear after the surgery.the pain looks too much,reflected from this other patient's face.he has experienced it, and he knows very well how the wrath feels like.he says he's been crying all day the first day his knee got operated.i cannot imagine the pain.thus, in every precious second left, i think i should conceptualize beforehand how will the pain embody in my knee as it might reduce the pain because i have expected its coming earlier, i guess.

the atmosphere in my room,occupied by 6 patients including me, is soaked with anxiety and worry.the future is really terrifying.sometimes, it feels like living in the present is just sufficient for us.but then again,man cannot evolve just by dwelling in the present,he must explore and morphosize into something else to fit in the future.in conclusion,i must undergo the operation ,feel the pain,recover, and become normal again.

19/1/2013

the pain has been very torturous since this morning.i sleep in pain and i dream of pain!the worst thing to tell is, i feel like hell when a nurse pull out the urinating tube from my genital.that could be the worst pain ever felt in my life.

21/12013

the unbearable torment has finally vanished after i do several sets of exercises that are taught by dr arsyad.he is a specialist in sports injury.his cool temperament cools off my tension.his face looks very expert.i gradually learn to walk with my walking sticks and it is really tiring actually.some co-patients have been discharged and i am glad to see their happy faces.i have made friends here.being in hospital is not that bad.as if